Numbness is ahead, I write to defreeze myself..

I drew those..&Vanilla Sky

Thursday, February 23, 2006


I didnt know that i could draw this well before..Since i stopped drawing when i was in 6-7th grade because of my uber clever art teacher in school..Never ever discourage someone, tell them that it is so bad after they spent a whole night trying to finish the project..
I really liked the picture i put in my previous post, so i tried drawing it with a pencil,on my own..It looks like it worked..Maybe over all, i have a bit of a talent for drawing..maybe i should try drawing from time to time..Just for fun..I can have sth to hang in my walls at least..Sth which is a creation of mine..
These days i feel like writing and pouring out of myself pretty often.Furthermore, since i have been sick in these days, the medicine makes me sleepy, but once the night and the sleeping time come, it gets harder for me to sleep than at normal, regular times..

Tonight I watched another movie.Called; "Vanilla Sky"..I m still kinda lost about it..I didnt quite get the very end,the part after he jumps of that building..Yes, David opens his eyes with this voice "Open your eyes"...But what happens there? Does he return back to real world after 150 years, or were all those just a dream and he actually never met Sofia, or maybe he met Sofia and dreamt in her house the night they met..Maybe i should watch the movie for the second time, but i have a feeling that i again will not get..If any one understood it properly, can they please tell me?

I think it was a good movie, acted by Tom Cruise,Penelope Cruz, Cameron Diaz. Especially i liked Tom Cruise's acting in this movie more than his other movies..The time i liked his acting as much as this time was definitely "A few good men". That was a good movie as well. this movie was pretty weird though..Somewhat similar to Donnie Darko, in terms of reality and dream and imagination..
How do we identify the real? Where is the dramatic line between reality and dreams&imagination? In the movie the Tech Support asks Mc Cabe(i guess this was his name, the pyschologist) what are the names of his daughters?-Mc Cabe was claiming that he was real to David(Tom Cruise)by saying he had daughterd and that David knew it-, and Mc Cabe couldnt answer. Which made him unreal..But on the other hand, until the end of the movie, David didnt know that he was in this Lucid dream..
What if we suddenly open our eyes and realise that we have been dreaming and that actually the past 2 years were not there, but we just dreamt, and now we wake up..And we are still 2 years younger than the time time we saw ourselves in the dreams..
What is more, if sth is only good, it is not real..Real brings the bitter and the sweet at the same time..That is the specialty of the reality..
Also, Mc Cabe was counting the 5 main emotions, according to him or to the script, Guilt,Hate,Revenge,Shame and Love..Why is Love the odd one out? Why is it the only one standing among the sad and negative emotions..Does it try to tell us, Love wouldnt come out without the sour inside of it?Maybe..
One really nice quote from the movie..
"Sweet is never is sweet without the sour"
I liked it..Just like the way i liked my drawing today..

(Turkish)
Ozur dilerim, bu seferlik boyle ingilizce oldu hepsi. Ama sizden birsey istesem? Ingilizcesini okusaniz bu sefer?ingilizceniz yeterli olsun yada olmasin..bir degisiklik olur hem..
Bu arada ben cizdim o resimleri, bir onceki posttaki resime bakarak..daha once cizim yapabilecegimi bilmezdim..Hosuma gitti..

19 comments:

Anonymous said...

The picture is really nice. You have a talent. You should work on it so you uncover your abilities in drawing. :-)

The thing that interests me is that in the original picture the male plays a dominant role. He holds his arms tightly around the woman, what symbolizes his strength, dominance.

However in your picture it is the woman who holds man. It looks like she holds him tightly while his arms are relaxed. He looks weak thus it seems like he, not the woman searches for support.

Did you do this on intention? What is the meaning of this little difference?

Vlado

Burcu Karadaş said...

Vanille sky maduru biri daha:D
Film bittiğinde şimdi adam öldü mü?hangisi gerçekti..sofiaya aşıksa linda oaraya gökten zembille mi indi gibi birbirinden ilginç sorulara,sonunda haaaa diyip ve saçma sapan bir zihin oyununa maruz kaldım senin gibi.Bu bir baştan seyredelim canım die ruhumu rahatlatmaya çalıştıysam da olmadı.ama bu tür filmler herzaman güzeldir.Zihin açar,kafa yapar..:) ben severim..ahaliyi bilemem.:)
Annam dejavu olayına girmişler die serzeniş yapan aynı sizin oranınızda deli birsiyle seyrediorsanız bir de..

Hatırladım da o tepkiyi ben vermiştim.normal olan arkadaşımdı:D

Emir said...

Filmde farkina vardiysan Tom Cruise trafik kazasi gecirip bi de ustune Penelope Cruze ile kavga ettikten bir sure sonra hersey tuhaf bir sekilde daha iyiye gitmeye basliyor (ozellikle kaldirimda uyandigi sahneden sonrasi). Iste o andan itibaren yasadigi hicbirsey gercek degil. Onlar aslinda filmin sonlarinda adi gecen Life Extension firmasinin Tom Cruise a gosterdigi bilincli ruyalar.E tabi Tom Cruise'un bilincalti sacmalamaya baslayinca ruyada sacmalamaya basliyo. Ve Tom Cruise'un uyutulmak icin neden bu firmaya gittigini de en sonundaki "technical assistance" denen amcam anlatiyo.

Yani en azindan ben bu kadar kavrayabildim, yani olayi biraz "vat iz di metriks" kivamina getirmeye calismislar ama....amasi ne ya, tamam yok bisey.

OzgeBozkurt said...

Bende filmi sinemada izlemiştim.Virtuoso nun amasını ben şöyle tamamlıyorum:"vat iz di metriks" kıvamına getirmeye çalışmışlar ama sonu hüsran olmuş...
Ben filmi çok beğenmemiştim. :D

Tugc said...

>d.<
Wow,that s good that you spend some time with your floormates;)
Well i dont know..I cant think of revenge as a good thing, and same for hate..But i know that temporarily it leaves some happiness inside a person, but then guilt takes over that happniness, and you again become the one screwing him/herself.
>burcyni<
Hayir sabahtan beri millete soruyorum,izlediniz mi sonunda noldu diye..Ya begenmemisler, yada hatirlamiyorlar..
Ben de o tarz filmleri cok severim, ahanda noldu be tarzinda filmleri yani..Hafif beynimizi calistiriyor fena mi?;) Ben Donnie Darko yu da cok sevmistim ve en iyi 2.(hatta 3.) seyredisimden sonra anlamistim.:D Izlemediysen tavsiye ederim:)
Yok ben filmi tek basima izledim, ben genelde tek basima film izlemeyi severim baskalari olunca sevmiyorum o kadar cok..Kendimle olucam,filme odaklanicam sadece..Garip biriyim ben:)

Tugc said...

>virtuoso<
Yok ben oralarini zaten anladim..Oralar anlasiliyor hemen, tech. support anlatiyor zaten oralarini...Benim anlamadigim kismi en sonu..Hani atliyor ya gokdelenden, sonra bir ses duyuyor "Open your eyes" diye, sanki Sofia'nin sesi gibi geldi bana, sonra Tom Cruise gozlerini aciyor ve film bitiyor..O sonu anlamadim..open your eyes diyen eger Sofia'ysa nasil oluyor 150 yil sonra hala o yasiyor, eger o degilse onu diyen kim..Yoksa Tom cruise hepsini ruyasinda filan mi gordu, yani hic Life Extension filan olayi olmadi mi..ay kafayi yicem..Cozmem lazim bunu ya:)

Emir said...

E ben anladim diye seviniyodum bak simdi benim de kafam yine asure oldu ya..:P

Tugc said...

>ozgebozkurt<
valla zevkler ve renkler olayi..ben severim bu tur filmleri ama ben matrixi sevmemistim mesela o kadar..sadece son filmini sevmistim.ama vanilla sky bence daha derin anlam tasiyor.
>virtuoso<
:) bosver ben deliyimdir takarim bu tur seylere saatlerce:)

Akın Aytekin said...

After all these depressing comments and replies, i will write about sth totally different. I wish i could draw like you do, but, unfortunately, the only thing that i can draw is "Cin Ali" (Turks, you know what i am talking about!"). This is a really thin guy who looks like a stick, no lungs, no bones weighs around 10 grams, just like a stick! May be that's why i like my Economics teacher, here (Xiaohang). Tuğçe, you must cheer us up a bit. My blog is depressing (which is usually in Turkish), your blog is depressing, when i took a look, D's blog was depressing... Right?
peace

Tugc said...

>akin<
Ok, i will start dancing belly dance, maybe that will entertain, right?
Well Cin Ali,did it reach up to 10grams, he should have a belly now, i ll teac1
him some figures to lose weight and become a proper Stick Man:)

Tugc said...

>serzenis<
Hem ozledim diyosun, hem de 20gunde bir yaziyosun ama, olur mu:) Valla cizime kabiliyetim oldugunu daha dun kesfettim:) Filmi ben sevdim valla da son 2 saniyesini anlayabilseydim iyi olcakti:)

Mr_TD said...

@tugce
sayfa ayarlari ile oynadin mi,sag tarafaki linkler alta kaymis gözüküyor bende.Sanki postinglerin fontlari da büyümüs gibi.

Tugc said...

>Mr TD<
Ya noldu bilmiyorum..Firefoxdan girince normal gozukuyor, explorer da farkli..Nasil duzeltecegimi de bilmiyorum..

Handan said...

Resim yapabilmeyi çok isterdim, ama ciddi bir yeteneksizlik sözkonusu, ben de boyama yapıyorum arada kafamı dinlendirmek için. Çocuklarla hep beraber boyama kitaplarımıza yumuluyoruz :)

Tugc said...

>handan<
O da guzel..Ben de aslinda yapamadigimi dusunuyordum, ama o kadar da kotu degilmisim..Ama sanirim uzerinde calismam gerekiyor biraz:)

Mr_TD said...

@tugce
son yaptigin posting i draft olarak kaydet,sonra takrar bir bak bakalim degisecek mi,sonra tekrar publish yap belki düzelebilir.

Bu arada resmine biraz mavi tonu eklesen oldu sana MATISSE :-)

Tugc said...

>mr.TD<
Isin ilginc yani, forefoxla cok duzgun calisiyor..Neden explorerda boyle bilmiyorum..Aman bosver, boyle oluversin..Ona da uzulemicem:D
>serzenis<
Hehe...Ben ruzgarin saclarimi savurmasini severim ama oyle deli gibi esmemesi gerekli:)

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