Finally my hangover is gone..Such a relief..When one of my friends came to the room and told me that she was so happy that her hangover was over, i completely understood what she meant.
I was in some of my friends' apartment half an hour ago,they got all smoked up;) but it was for sure fun to hang out..And a movie...bourne's identity..cool movie..
Whole evening until 10, i watched That 70's Show..
Talked on the phone..A friend asked me what happened to me, and told that s/he could not recognise me anymore...*is it true?* *have i really changed to the point someone realises the difference?* it fucked up my brain a bit though..i m trying pretty hard to neglect those 2 sentences and continue..Maybe i shouldnt always tell people what i think and feel and do..
On the other hand, it is true that i have changed..I m not that innocent,dreamy little girl who believes in love and eternity of it etc..that thought has faded away from me a while ago, and got destroyed under some reality. *it got replaced with not trusting someone easily,seeking sth suspicious under everything,being more flirtatious than before as a revenge,without knowing what the revenge is actually for...my previous stupidly innocence and dreaminess maybe?* I m not saying it is a good or a bad thing but that is how the things become..And we all change without realising..It is just like, i m in the realisation of the change i assume.
i m fucking with my brain again..shouldnt do that..whenever i think so much about these, it just makes me pessimistic and prevents me from enjoying the moment and what is more, creates a 3 person who watches every single movement and action the one is committing..i watch myself as a third person those times, and it is just a weird feeling..i cannot decide if it s good ore bad anymore..And at 3am in the morning, i m thinking about these as if i have nothing else to do, like sleeping. -i m not so sleepy though, considering i have slept or at least hung around my bed whole day because of the hangover-. Anyways...
before i start screwing your brain, i should just leave the place to photos so that they can make you forget what i have been saying above...
Numbness is ahead, I write to defreeze myself..
More photos from the social..Read the post one down,too..
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Posted by Tugc at 9:41 AM
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way be tugce super betimlemissin ya...
"i m fucking with my brain again..shouldnt do that..whenever i think so much about these, it just makes me pessimistic and prevents me from enjoying the moment and what is more, creates a 3rd person who watches every single movement and action the one is committing.."
gercekten boyle oluyo, ve dedigin gibi cok kotu bisey, bi kismin seni disardan izliyo...ve sen gercekten o an, ne yaptigindan bisey anliyosun ne de zevk aliyosun...
walla buna bi cozum bulmak isterdim..ama henuz bende bulamadim...ama insanin kafasi rahat olmayinca alakasiz seyler aklina gelip gittikce oluyo malesef..neyse ben de daha fazla sıkmayim ama gercekten guzel anlatmissin, I appreciate it..(ne demekse:)
ah tanrım okulda politika da political socialization konusunu gördük geldik bir de evde social lı bir başlık görünce kalbime iniyordu nerdeyse :)))))
japaon kısa bayıldım:))
hoşçakal şirine güsel Tugçe:)
>maidenfan<
sadece icimden gecenleri,dusundugumu ve hissettigimi yazdim o kadar..tesekkur ederim:)
>emirbey<
yok, bu social ders degil;)
>roman<
my msn is weird...i updated it and now it keeps signing in and out even when i m not in the room..and i saw what you wrote just now when i came back from shopping...
>mustafa<
hadi byes..
fotolar super tugce :))))
ayrica sen hep etek giyyyyy:)))
>roman<
i just dont understand why you keep deleting your comments!
>vintage<
gercekten mi? eskiden etek giymezdim ben hic, bacaklarimin kalin oldugunu ve yakismayacagini dusunurdum..ama bu yaz giymeye basladim ve herkes begenior genellikle:D
önce okulun açık adresını yolla bana,sonra party tarihlerini ,birkaç bayanında contact bilgilerini ekledinmi,daha ne ister insan :)
senin güler yüzlü olan resimlerini görmek ayrı bir mutlu ediyor,en azından bazen neşesi yerinde bizim çılgın Tuğçe nin diyorum,aman nazar değmesin :)
>Mr.TD<
Degdi bile sanki:D Hehe, o gece baya eglendim, bu dogru;)
few tips of avoiding hangovers in general:
a)I know it's rather impossible in a club, but if you are having a house party or room/flat party buy a lot of joghurt and drink it; one glass of hard liqour and one glass of joghurt side by side. If you are drinking stuff like vodka or whiskey it has multiple positive effects: your breath is not horrible, your alcohol test if stopped by police is always a success, and you don't have hangover
b) taking it you are in a club and you are drinking loads the best thing you can do in the morning is to force yourself to drink at least a liter of Sprite. Sprite is your friend - remember that !! :)
c)Try avoiding drinks that mix really badly, e.g. drinking vodka\tequila and then whiskey - it's gruesome! this advice doesn't apply if you are alcoholic though :)
Take care,
Nikola
Furthermore all these talk about innocence and changing personality- a few comments.
Firstly, if you are living in a closed-like community as Flekke was I guess it is rather impossible to avoid having tags -but, you should not make your moves in accordance to others opinions, it will make you go mental. On the other hand if you are just discovering that life's different aspects,e.g. it can be quite interesting to flirt or talk freely with random people, there is nothing wrong in that. Just by trying out different things that you were used to and exploring yourself and how much you like different things is great and it is what makes us progress, otherwise we would still live in caves and stone age. Besides we all change not without realising, but conciously as we comprehend there is more to certain aspects of life and and that we want to experience them in one or other way. The 3rd person observing others action is a part of all social events and societies, my advice is not to be bothered by those as on a very basic level - what are those people's(3rd person people) credentials to judge any other individual on any ground, especially moral one??
Ok I talked too much, but to conclude, my wish is that you don't ponder about how and why you changed in the way you did;rather accept the change and find where does it place you right NOW. What has been can never be erased but it can also NEVER be again, so instead of longing for it, embrace it in yourself as a memory and treat it with care.
Nikola
>the wss<
both alcohol stuff and other thoughts...i ll definitely take them into consideration.. thank you:D
>roman<
well well..btw, when i click on your blog, it shows this weird block...it directs immediately..dunno why..
Dunno.
Sigh. The world would be an empty, empty place without the Balcan peninsula.
>roman<
;)
Btw I forgot to mention one thing :
When you are hangover in the morning the best thing one can do is to make turkish coffee and listen to 50's music :)
tugce, eleman yannis anlamis yaw...gavur, turkun halinden anlamiyo iste:P.. eleman iyi baslamis yaziya da, sorra 3uncu insan butun sosyal iliskilerde olur fln filan demis...kardesim ucuncu insan dedigimiz kendimiz orda..:) neyse yaw koptum sadece okuyunca..:)
>wss<
i ll take into consideration next time :)
>maidenfan<
ben gavur lafindan hic hoslanmam,sen de kullanmazsan iyi edersin..
fotograflarda harika gorunuyorsun ;), eglenmissin, dans etmissin ve dostlarinla guzelce zaman gecirmissinm daha ne olsun :))) degisim kotu birsey degildir hem, insan zaman icinde buyur, degisir, olgunlasir, guzellesir :)) daha bissuru bissuru sey, herkesin sendeki degisime ayak uydurmasini bekleme ve tum bunlardan cok etkilenme-cok kolay gibi soyledim biliyorum:)
vintage'a katiliyorum, etek giy ;)
DAVETTT:)
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HOŞÇAKALIN AMA NE OLUR KATILIN YARIŞMAYA:D
walla "yabanci cocuk" demektense gavur demek daha kolay oluyo..buraya yazarken hatirlamaya calisirim artik.. yoksa kotu bi mana tasimiyo bu laf..en azindan ben kullanirken icimden kotu bisey gecmio..bizim de burda birsuru yabanci arkadasimiz var zaten..herneyse iste.
>princess<
evet eglendim o gece, gerci ertesi gun acisi feci cikti yalniz...:) etek icin, soylenenleri goz onunde bulunduracagim, hem vintage hem sen :)
degisim bence de iyi ama yine de taktim iste arkadasimin sozlerini kafama..
>mustafa<
tesekkur ederim..Benim fotolar blogda var gordugun gibi,ordan karar verebilirsin :)
>maidenfan<
kotu bi manayla soyledigini dusunmedim zaten ama yine de ben pek sevmiyorum o kelimeyi...senin de bir dolu yabanci arkadasin oldugunu biliyorum zaten bu arada.
Wow, what a wonderful time you had, right?... Enjoy! Life is beautiful!!!
Tugcecim super gozukuyor fotolar:) ahh ya biz de gecen sene bir suru eglenceli partilere gidiyorduk, simdi de gidiyoruz da bir yavaslama var hayatta, ya da bana oyle geliyor..neyse bilemedim:) sana bol eglenceler canim!
Durdum durdum, yine yazdim di mi Tugce. Bu aralar bole, gayet istikrarsiz takiliyorum...
>oktay<
definitely it was;)
>burcuk<
galiba oyle oluor..biz de gecen sen eikinci donem daha cok iderdik sanki, bu donem herkesde bir ders telasi var, herkes ilk siraya arkadasliktan once onu koymus durumda filan..sinir olmuyor degilim hani.
>virtuoso<
oyle valla..daha sik yaz canim sen de artik..
canım benim,
uzaklardan bir doğum gününü daha kutluyorum.yanımda olsan o güzel kocaman gözlerinden öperek kutlamak çok daha güzel olurdu.ama olsun sen zor şeyleri başarabilen bir çocuk olduğun için her zaman,böylesi kısmetmiş.
sen benim canım,arkadaşım,bebeğimsin.Kızlarım olduğu için hiç pişmanlık duymadım kendi umutlarımı,kendi arzularımı gördüm sizlerde.sizlerde beni hayal kırıklığına uğratmadınız.
yeni yaşın kutlu olsun bebeğim.hayattan bütün beklentilerin gerçek olsun.her zaman mutlu ve huzurlu ol.
seni kucaklar dolusu öpüyorum.Bir an önce sana doyasıya sarılmak dileğiyle.
ANNEN
Bütün En'lerin toplandığı tek ablasın.Annem iyiki seni doğurmuş ve iyiki sen benim yalnızca benim ablam olmuşsun.Sen daima benim önümde bir örneksin başarılarınla,güzelliğinle...herşeyinle...Bunların yanında benim en iyi arkadaşımsın.Bütün sırlarımı seninle paylaşıyorum.Bazılarını annem bile bilmiyor.Seni çoook özledim canım ablacım.doğum günün kutlu olsun.Seni çoooooookkk seviyorum.
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