Sigh*Sigh*Sigh*

EDIT:: 2 good songs by Mor ve Otesi and Maroon5.


I feel lonely, i feel alone..yes i have a lot of friends, and some really really good friends...But there is noone who loves me and who makes me feel it deeply..
i m tired of just closing my eyes and imagining there is actually a ghost who loves me and secretly spoons me every night while i m sleeping..

And i hate so much about talking about love etc..It is bullshit anyways, but still i want it to hit me...

I m tired of being alone..
I cannot say i m tired of sleeping alone, at least in a single bed, since it is really hard to sleep two people in a single bed, plus i m a selfish person, i always want the whole of bed..and will wake up 2 times every night to drink water or pee or simply just stand up and go back again..therefore will have to jump over the person... But still keep being selfish to sleep inside the bed..
And the pillow wouldnt be enough, the cover or blanket will not be enough, and if you think you are clever and therefore put two blankets, definitely 1 of them will fall...
And i would wanna sleep on my stomach, and since the place is not enough, my arms would be sticked to my body, and when i wake up it is gonna hurt..
But maybe i wont be tired of sleeping alone on a double bed..or maybe i will still be selfish...

i dont know...i just feel too alone to fight back the world...and i still try to fight...